When I was a little girl I had always desired friendship and I had many friends. My heart was open and pure as friendship was birth in me.
Then when I became a teenager having friends became a little complicated. I had one very close dear best friend and we were inseparable for years. When you saw her you saw me. We were Soul Sisters. The Dynamic Duo. But then as life would have it boys came into our world and our beautiful friendship faded away.
Then I got married and I had a couple of kids and I desired friendship again. I wasn’t sure if I should let these new women into my heart but I did. I let them all the way in and at the time it was very rewarding but that too faded away and I was so hurt.
I’m now in my thirties and I’m desiring true and real friendship again so I push passed my fears of being hurt (so I thought ) and I open my heart to friendship. As time went by I found myself again hurt serval times by friendships, that I wanted to completely close off my heart to friendship. But I couldn’t close off my heart to friendship.
I decided to keep the door 🚪 to friendship open but on my terms. These friends can only come on the outside of my heart was the rule that I gave myself. Then down the road I realized that this rule was so not working for me and that it had been poisoning ☠️ my Life.
That poisonous rule was rooted in fear and makes you keep Everyone at a distance.✋🏽The crazy thing is that I thought I was protecting myself, I did not know that I had blocked my heart from my Soul Sisters. I also wasn’t aware that I was constantly waiting for my friends to reject me. Having Negative Beliefs Sucks!!
That Negative Belief of rejection and feeling like I wasn’t Enough was causing me to attract so called friends (Not Soul Sisters) who would eventually fulfill my self-fulfilling prophecy of rejection.
WOW, I can’t believe that I had the answer the whole time to having True Friendships and my Negative Beliefs were blocking me.
I am now allowing my Soul Sisters my Beautiful Friends into my Heart. Into my Heart is where Love is Given and Love is Received. My Soul Sisters they get me and love me dearly. Into My Heart Friendship will always be.
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