Choosing to Thrive

Homeschool a Moms Nightmare

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Let me be the first to say that Homeschooling my children is not for me.

I will not feel bad for saying that.

I have had two panic attacks since attempting to homeschool my children.

The panic attacks that I had came on by the fear of me failing my children and the anxiety of feeling overwhelmed by this whole homeschooling thing that I as well as many other Moms have just been thrown into.  As a Mom one of my biggest fears has been failing my children in some way.  I think all Moms have this fear that we don’t want to fail our children in any area of Life.

So how do we face this fear?  How do we face this Nightmare that we’re in?

The first thing I did was to acknowledge in detail my fears and anxiety.  ( Side-note I am not a doctor or therapist this is just my advice and tools that helped me.)

You see when we keep our fears and anxiety in the Dark it will ALWAYS have power over us.  It’s important for us to face our fears.

My fear was me failing my children with homeschooling them and that I would be judged by others for doing so.  My anxiety was feeling overwhelmed with having to homeschool all four of my children, plus over seeing my high-schooler and feeling like I could not say that this is some hard SHIT for me to do as a Mom and I don’t want to do it.

After I acknowledged my fears and anxiety I spoke with my husband and a couple of my kids teachers about how I was feeling and asked for their help.  Talking to a trusted person about how we are feeling as a Mom is a tool.  We need to use that tool.  Also asking for help is also a tool, that we as Moms need to utilize as well.  My husband encouraged me to utilize our 11 year old son Xavier and 12 year old daughter Alexis to help me with homeschooling.  They are great helpers.

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I felt a lot better talking and getting some help.  Then on Friday of last week I started to feel overwhelmed again.  My husband asked me how I was doing and I told my husband F**k Homeschool!!  At that point I realized that I needed a break so I took a break.  Taking a Break is a tool and the best part of being at home is that we can take a break when we need to.

My husband, kids and I all took a long break outside in a field across from our house and played kickball one day.  It was so nice to be outside as a family and enjoying fun activities together.  In that moment I realized this gift that E-learning homeschool has give me.  That gift is more time with my Children.  I told myself that during this Coronavirus pandemic that I would look for the Opportunities, Gifts and Blessings around me.

Sometimes our fears and anxiety can blind us from seeing the Opportunities, Gifts and Blessings around us.

Don’t get me wrong I am not saying that I now like homeschool or that I like my kids being home 24/7 with me.  I’m simply saying that I will choose to keep my focus on Creating Opportunities in my home while homeschooling, Embracing my Gifts, Seeing and Enjoying all the Blessings around me and using my tools to help me get through this once Nightmare, so that it can become a Dream for me.  That is all.

Moms have a Productive and Peaceful week!!  We are all in this together!!  Please do what you can and celebrate yourself.  We will make it through this.  I hope that what I shared encourages you and helps you.  YOU ARE DOING A GREAT JOB.  I know it may not seem like it and may be hard for you to receive those words from me, but you are.  I felt the same way when one of my kids teachers told me that I was doing a great job, but it is TRUE.  We are doing a GREAT JOB!!

Teachers I miss you dearly and I totally appreciate you and I have a new found RESPECT for all of You!!!  Thank You!!  Thank You for all your help and for being who you are!! I’m sending Love and Light your Beautiful Way.  God Bless You All!!

❤️ Charmaine Moore
Face of Hope and Beauty
Lifestyle Coach | Model | Life Speaker

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2 thoughts on “Homeschool a Moms Nightmare”

  1. I’m not homeschooling but I felt this deep. As someone who is in charge of 115 college sophomores in total panic & disarray I must say “F*%k” turning my beautifully orchestrated exciting 3hr class that I spent the entire summer developing, into a “remote” course… and do it now! Panicked!! My old “fear of failure” came back with a vengeance. I had to let go knowing my evaluations won’t be sparkly this year. They WONT learn as much. They WONT remember this course fondly. This cannot be saved. Just get by. They will be behind…. all of us will be. Let it fall apart so it can fall into place!

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