Choosing to Love

In the Hands of God


The picture above is a picture of me when I was a little girl. I LOVE that girl in that picture and I think that I was about seven or eight years old in that picture. I remember as a little girl that I always wanted to know God and I remember one day asking God if God was real. I don’t remember getting an answer from God that day, but deep down inside I felt a very strong connection to God from that day forward.

WARNNING: What I am about to share is not easy but it is healing for me, please be advised that some content may be a trigger for you and please read at your own discretion.

Looking at the beautiful picture of me as a little girl has brought up so many emotions. The first emotion was Pain, then Fear, then Joy, then Pain again, then Sadness and then Peace and Love. During this time as a little girl, I had already been sexually abused 5 times by three different men, a young boy and a teen boy. The teenager boy went on to sexually abuse me for about four years and then shortly after I turned 12 years old he raped me, not once but several times. The rape was not forced because after four plus years of being molested, I could no-longer FEEL or even cared. I had felt that my body was not my own and when I would try to resist him he would destroy my toys and things.

So, the BIG question in all of this is where was GOD. Where was God?

During, this time I remember different people taking me to church so that I could know about God. It wasn’t until one day when I was all alone in my bedroom, I remember calling and crying out to God to literally save me from the horrible situation that I was in. I was so afraid to tell anyone what was happening to me and the person that was my guardian at the time was physically and verbally abusing me, I was too afraid of her to tell her anything. I felt like she hated me, so in my mind I believed that she would have not helped me.

So every night before I would go to bed, I would pray to God to save me and turn my TV on some Bible Church station so that I could feel close to God.

Help is on the WAY!!

My father had passed away two months after I turned twelve and at his funeral I saw my older sister Rose. My Mom has three children and we all have different dads. My older sister Rose is my Mom’s daughter. At my dads funeral, I had broke-down and told my sister Rose everything that had happened to me. She hugged me tight and told me that everything was going to be alright. At that time I lived in Springfield Illinois and my father funeral was in Robbins Illinois. So I went back home with my guardian and forgot about what I had shared with my sister Rose.

One day, as I was walking to school my Mom, grandfather and my sister grandmother Forestine pulled up in a car next to me. They told me to get in the car and that we were going to go for a ride. I was a little hesitant at first to get in the car, but because my Mom was in the car, I got in. My grandfather started driving and this ride that I thought would be a short ride went on for hours. What I did not know was that my sister Rose had told her grandmother Forestine what had happened to me and her grandmother got my Mom and grandfather to drive down to Springfield Illinois to SAVE ME.

GOD truly hears our Prayers and lay them on the hearts of beautiful Ordinary but Extraordinary individuals to help us.

What my Sister Rose, my Mom, my Grandfather and my Grandmother aka Forestine did for me was so very Brave, Beautiful and Priceless. I thank God for these four Extraordinary Individuals!!

This was my very first encounter in Seeing my Life In the Hands of God and their has been many more encounters since then.  My Life will always be In the Hands of God. I am Safe, I am Secure and God is truly for me and with me.

If you are reading this I just want to thank you for being Brave with me to go through some painful and beautiful memories. Thank you for helping me to give voice to my story. God bless You!!

❤️ Charmaine Moore Face of Hope and Beauty

Copyright 2017

12 thoughts on “In the Hands of God”

  1. I most definitely will admit that I have been down that road and had a lot of those things happen to me as well and I was most definitely afraid to say a word about it but then I finally did speak about it and told some of my family but yet have I faced the person to just ask them why and why me but that is something that I want to do and will do one day just don’t know when!!!! But I do thank you for share by that with me

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    1. You are so very welcome Patricia and thank you for being Brave to share with me. Whatever you face going forward Patricia please know this, that you are Safe, Secure and God is with you.
      Love You!!😘


  2. Thanks for caring enough for others and yourself to be a blessing by sharing your story. I to was molested, raped and abused at a very young age and I remember learning not to care or feel anything about anyone and that went on for a great part of my life. Thanks GOD I learned about God and how He could restore me too someone who cared for others and along my journey I learned to love and respect myself. Again thanks for sharing your story. Love and Respect Sharon.

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    1. Wow, Sharon!! Thank you so very much for sharing. I hate that those things happen to you. You are truly Beautiful and I thank God for your Life. Your now and future is so very Bright!! Keep Shining!! God is with You!! Love you😘


  3. Thank you for sharing your story. Your bravery in sharing this will help others to overcome their past. They overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the words of their testimony…(Revelation 12:11). I, too, was abused (physically and verbally) for 20 years by father. At the age of 30 I was able to forgive him and now we have a great relationship. God truly is a healer and deliverer! I’m so glad you experienced His faithfulness to save.

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  4. Thank You for sharing that with me, I never knew that, I’m sitting here with tears in my eyes, had I known if I could have done something, but GOD makes no mistakes, I’m very proud of you. Your brother Jimi

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  5. You are so brave and your experience is going a long way to help others. I was molested by two men and my own brother abused me and threatened my life if I told. I can’t help but think God had a plan. He has used me in some remarkable ways. I am forever grateful for all he has done in cleaning me up from the inside out.

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    1. Thank you so very much Carol for sharing your story with me. Every time we share our stories we our Empowered and we are saying to that abuse that it does not define us or control our Lives!! Carol it gives me Great Joy to see you walking in your God given POWER!!!! Love you and God bless you😘


  6. It was a pleasure to meet you today in line at Walmart. Thank you for your card. I knew you were a special person just by the way you carry yourself. I have bookmarked your site and subscribed. I appreciate you sharing your story of hope. God bless you. 🙏🏻

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